Family

This week has been crazy! After watching wife swap I decided that I had to write down a few of my thoughts. I will start off by saying my mom just had her thyroid takin out because she had tons of growths on it and they didnt know it was cancerous or not so she chose to take it out.

Wife swap is a tv show about two seperate families swapping wives for two weeks.They usually have completely different backgrounds and beliefs. The one I watched today was an extreme christian home and a family that was athiest. The one mother who came from an athiest home actually grew up mormon. As a woman and now a mother of her own she believes in No God and that you can express yourself the way you want. They have frequent parties with drinking and pole dancing involved. Yeah! They had a pole in the middle of there front room and they dance during these parties. The crazy thing of it all is they let there kids join all this! They spend 1000 dollars each month or something like that yet no money for their kids. So far they have spent over 35 thousand dollars on tattoos.

Now the other christian family do not let there kids leave there house. There will be no talking to boys until there 16. The mother gets to choose there outfits each day. They believe in the man law which means the women do ALL the cleaning and cooking and the men work. HA, so even there little boy gets to do NO chores and the girls get stuck with all the cleaning!

HAHA so you can imagine this episode! It was pretty funny to watch but the atheist husband really hit me hard as much as the christain family was trying to inforce Christ on there kids. The other parents were inforcing NO Christ. :( The father actually threw away a bible in the garbage and said thats where that belongs...:( It made me so sad to seee this. It was horrible and the worst thing about it was his younger son backing him up saying how horrible the bible was and God does not exist. He is no older than 8 I would say....Does he really believe that on his own or was it because of his parents??

Then I started to think once again just how important raising your kids and family is!! I love my family and my son. My mom is my world. She has always been there to support me no matter what! She was my number one fan making it to all my softball games. Today we went down to the local gas station to get my moms daily cookie and diet coke. No matter where my mom goes everyone knows her and she has the most outgoing bubbly personality:) As I sat back and watched her with the regular coffee drinkers and watched them laugh I realized just how many people my mom reaches out to. I LOVE that about her! She is the kindest woman I know. And really forgiving too. Her kids mean the world to her. She would never go on a trip unless her kids went too. :) OUR happiness is her Happiness! I have always written notes to my mom ever sense I was a little girl. She said she always knew she was going to get a note from me after school. She has a kept a few of them :) My family has always been my core. :) Instead of hanging out with friends I was home with my mom. Yeah this probably hurt my social life in Highschool but I would do it all over again...maybe;) To this day if I get to spend the day with my mom and someone else I love I fill COMPLETE :) She puts a smile on my face, I couldnt ask for another mother she puts so much laughter and fun into any moment :)

She is now getting a blessing so I have to hurry but we got the phone call today from the doc and turns out her thyroid was canerous. So now she might have to go through some kemo treatment. ? Not sure whats going on...Anyway, I love my family and now my personal family:)

Christmas In September

It's down to only a few weeks before I get to see my bundle of baby boy. I have only one more work week and then I can lay in bed all day and be able to breath! :) And wait for his BIRTHDAY :)

I have the Craziest dream about you son and more than anything I JUST hope that you are HEALTHY in every way! I feel the excitement of christmas eve waiting for santa to bring you gifts and spend time with the family. In a way I dont want you to come out and I will miss you! :(

I havent been able to enjoy him completely and it breaks my heart I feel like I have let him down already. Overall, its been a good experience but its been nothing what I would hope a pregnant woman would have to go through.

I will definalty be there for those who were in my position. Actually a lot of my firends are pregnant now so thats exciting that were on the same page. Every woman should be treated special especially when there creating a little one inside of em:) This is definatly a time in a womans life to be spoiled so the baby can grow healthy and strong and happy inside ;) My friend Ashley is due in November and it was nice to be able to spend time with her and share our pregnancy stories together.

It's an amazing feeling and crazy to think about what is going inside your body! I didnt really feel like I was MORE emotional. But I am a senstive woman and I think so more now. I would get teary eyed over silly things like commericals or things that wouldnt bother me before. Being a single pregnant woman I would feel really lonely most times and HATE seeing couples....I know thats kind of bad. But I didnt like to see kids either. HA like when there crying in the stores or something I was like UGH!

Anyway, I love holding my nephew though and each time I do I picture holding my own son. And I can't wait!!! I get really nervous about being a good mom and teaching him what I need to. Its funny how babies will just stare at a picture of Christ! I really do believe they can remember where they just came from and the veil hasnt been completely lifted :) Maybe thats why we can't remember anything either. Jk I think there is something so special about infants and how innocent they are.

I Love and respect my momma so much more for everything she went through and she DID it! And thank her and my dad for all the help and support :( I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! They keep me up and going. I want to give up so many times not sure if its satan or what but I feel like I can't do this sometimes. But I know that I can.

My family and friends have been great support and I want to thank you all for it!! Here are a few pictures I took. Now mind you I am 8 months pregnant not sure how great you can look and having a photographer like my mom It was very difficult to get any good pictures. Cuz I was talking her through the picutre so I wasnt smiling in a lot of them :) ha anyway, I am glad that I got some though of him in there.

Today, on the way to work I felt a sense of peace I guess you could say that I was suppose to go through this. Up until now I didnt think I was living my life the way it was suppose to be and it depressed the crap out of me cuz all I wanted and wished for was to rewind time change things for the better. I was suppose to find my true love someone who was compatable with me. I mean I did keep those boys away for so long growing up I knew there was better out there. I really wanted someone special and didnt care for dating or the whole boy scene until college. Anyway we were to get married in the temple have successful jobs and A beautiful Family :) Granted I have sinned and made some mistakes but as far as being where I "should" be I think it really is where I am now.

Of course our father in heaven doesn't want us to go through any of these trials and only if we were all perfect we wouldn't need to. But I personally feel that each one of us goes through what we need to for us to have a better understanding of this plan and life and to return to our Heavenly Father as smarter beings greater faith :)

What has always been the hard part to accept is that I know better I do have a testimony of life and God and yet I chose certain things to put me here! But let me tell you people I would not of been who I am today. Not that I judged people and thought less of them but I did judge myself according to their acts and always thought. HOW COULD THEY DO THAT!? I WOULD NEVER!!! Key word NEVER. :( ha and look at me today:) I have a bigger heart for people in certain positions and can understand why people do things they do or atleast love them regardless. Now that I have experienced what I have I can be a tool for others and help them out maybe help them look at the bigger picture. Or they may have to go through it themselves to understand but I will be there as a friend. Anyway, it feels good to finally accept me for me as of the person i am today. And to know that I am not perfect and no one is and that I am aware of what I need to do for the future. I may fall even more but its a continous lesson learned this life and I am grateful for it. I would of been those souls up there telling my father no you dont have to test me I promise I would follow you to a T. I wouldn't do that!!! Well, thats why he sent me here:) I love this little guy in my stomach and I know he would be a blessing to anyone if I chose to adopt him out. I really feel that I can teach him all that I know and be a good mother:) As far as the father goes. I think you will be happy to look into the eyes of the man that really loves and cares for you and wants nothing more but for you Michael to be happy. WOW! alright didnt think i was gonna be writing all of this..But here it is :) I have always kept a journal and I am glad to be introduced to this blog thing cuz I can put pictures and type faster than write so I might get a little personal as the blogs go by but its ok. Until next time.

Luau Party :)

First of all I just want to express to my nieces how much I love them! They always put a smile on my face. These girls are filled with such vivacious personalities! We always sing songs, dance, or talk when were together. Catalyn cuddled up to me this visit:) I loved it! Aeris has always said clever things sense she has been able to talk. She really does look like an Aftan girl. She asked me this weekend if I wanted a girl I told her yes and she said why? So she can be a little Aftan?! I said no your my little Aftan. She says yeah no one can take my place! :) I think she was a little worried. lol. Catalyn always makes the funniest faces shes not much of a talker but boy does she communicate :) My mom says my personality was more like Catlyns because I was a lot more stubborn was I was younger. But I love to do things and spend time with these girls. I am having my own little one on the way and want to spend as much one on one time with them. I hope I will always have a good relationship with them and they know how much I love them. WIth that said I want to share what we did this weekend.

It started with breakfast for my girls in the morning. Then they took a princess bath with Mr. King! Since Aeris was little I have always had "Mr. King" give her a bath:) Its a big cup. :) She loves him and is always happy to comply with his orders.:) which is good for me.

I had them choose which princess they wanted to be for the day. Aeris was Queen Bell! And Catalyn was princess Cinderella:)

With our princess hairdos done we headed to walmart to get new outfits and stuff for dinner. They came home to watch the junglebook and play with grandmas puzzles while I set up the party and cook dinner.

Aeris was very happy to see the decorations."OH my GOSH, a like the blue fish!" I put a flower in our hair and of a course the leis. We ate dinner after grandpa and grandma showed up. Had french fries and pigs in a blanket and hawaiian punch. They also got to meet Peter the bird that hosted the party:)

After dinner Aeris gave us a luau dance show until grandpa embarrased her:( It was really cute. Grandpa even did a little dance for us! They each got a present for Aeris I gave her A hanana montana poster that you draw on and Catalyn a casper one becuase it had a spider on it. She loves spiders! She loves bugs really always finds them and even picks them up! Crazy GIRL!

After that they had a surprise for them outside. An inflatable waterslide they loved it! It was hot all day and then of course as soon as we set it up the sun goes away:( So Aeris got into still but Catalyn was a little cold. They picked up rocks from granpas rock garden and called them there babies kept putting them in the water. Catalyn was scared of the bucket that would fill up with water and fall on you. Aeris would pour it on purpose.

I am falling asleep as i type this up right now. Aeris is with me on the couch. Kind of funny everytime I fall asleep my finger presses down on a letter and it fills the whole page up. And Aeris just stares at me and then says Ok thats enough I think someone is tired:) After all the excitement I got really tired. And needed to take a nap after feeding them more food. Tomorrow we will pick up where we left off. I asked Aeris her favorite part of the day and it was the slide. I used to dream of this kind of stuff when I was younger and even now. So I am glad that they get to enjoy my dreams :)

My kids;) Journal entry

Sept, 9, 2008. I wrote this months ago with other stuff but i thought i would share this.

Ok here goes. Every journal entry can be so different because sometimes I write from my emotions fo the moment and sometimes Im not serious, sometimes I write my deepest thoughts that can only make sense to me but not in ink!
With that said I hope I can look back at all these enteries and smile. Because I have learned-loved-felt sorrow-survived-sinned-hated grown to whom I am today!

Future Children if you ever read this I have lived before you for a reason. I hope my life can impact yours in some small way. I will teach you from what I have learned-share all my sweet and sour moments. If i could just have you understand one thing...We are NEVER finished product! We make mistakes every min of the day. Always be humble and open to everyone! Its not our job to judge or make assumptions of others. YOu can change your life any time of the day. I have changed some of my values and thoughts on certain things recently. I can change them once again. The heartache of sin is the worst feeling I have ever felt! But I can not rewind time! Therefore, Love yourself! Repent and do not repeat that heavy burdon sin. Be ready for it, I pray that you never have to go down this road but God and If I am alive will be your support!

*Friends* I dont want anyone to tell you that its not important who your friends are! I was always strong growing up no one influenced my character..I thought but those you spend time with can make you feel better about your life in small ways. My life would NOT be the same today if I didnt have my strong-great-example- happy-trustworhty friends :) I love each one of them and they have taught me more in those years than anyone else. Typically our life especilally at a young age. Choose the ones that will help you complete them with good decisions! I can not express that enough. Find a love and love it everyday possible. I did and it was sports :) ha I was goood at it too.

Knowledge in some life categories can possibly let your guard down with curiosity. Anytime growing up I heard talk of sex, profanity, things that destroy your happiness in the long road I gladly did not participate! And boy im i happy i did. Knowing what i know now!

I was not stupid and didnt need to know how to do certain things. If you stay away from it-that alone will protect you. Curiosity hurt me and i will always bleed from that wound. Meaning the things i have experienced were all wrong for the moment and time i trusted in those i shouldnt. The Holy Ghost should be your guidance then one you trust! Its so hard to change without those great friends encouraging you helping you love yoursef. Ive had my moments but I survived the lowest depression in my life! All in my life helped me but sometimes thats what its about this life. Helpting those around us to live with our father again. Be with those that only love you for TRUTH! THey will never want to hurt you and If they do(they will) they will feel worse than you! BE an example for those around you! I hope one of my kids can draw ;) There was more but its get even more personal if you can imagine :) ha

Great Grandpa & Grandma's 70th Anniversary :)

It was my great grandparents anniversary on the 29th of March! We all met at chuckarama and had lunch! When our family gets together it can be a little crazy and not much planned so my Grandpa didnt even know the party was for him until after :) We got them a digital picture frame. He actually thought my friend that was with me Jay was my dad. My mom and Dad have been divorced for years so it was kind of funny. We had a good time I asked my Great Grandma what made them last this many years whats the trick?! She said "It's easy I married the words greatest man! And if you like your inlaws it helps." Simple enough! I stole these pictures from Leslie because I can't find my camera. Love ya all!

DisneyLand 09

DisneyLand :) You know what they say "


We flew to Long Beach Airport, Cali met up with my brother and his family at the hotel. As soon as we got settled in we headed to Disneyland! Spent the whole day there. The lines were very long but we had a lot of fun! I remembered a lot of the rides from when I was young. The most exciting part was to see my nieces reactions :) The next day Eric joined us with Amber as we woke up early to eat breakfast with some Disney characters where Lilo and Stich found my nephew Kade and did not leave him alone! It was hilarious. After breakfast we headed to Adventure Land after a long wake do some kind of threat towards the park. A lot less busy at the adventure park. We were the only people for some of the roads later on the day it got more busy. I would recommend the 4d bug ride :) It was really neat made me jump out of my seat ;) The kids loved that part of the park. Towards the end of the day I got a little hostile towards one of the workers there GRRR they let me niece go on all the rides except this one. And it was my favorite one I wanted to experience it with all of them :( I wont share the story cuz its kind of embarrising. But my mom came and got me before I was thrown in jail ;) after that my day was ruined i even woke up thinking about this kid and his death ;) Anyway, besides that breakdown it was a lot fun! We had to carry the kids home they were so beat we really stretched out our days there.

The next day it was off to Disneyland again. Apparently they perform a skit once a year towards the end of the day we saw that twice. But CatlyBug Fell asleep each time my niece. It was probably my favorite thing there at Disney. It was my bro and his wives anniversary so we took the kids and they went and did something special. We said goodbye to my sister and her husband Eric in the middle of the day. They had to get home. No matter how much my family fights or how made we get at eachother we still come together for the next holiday with smiles on our faces..I think every family fights otherwise you wouldnt be close :) Anyway, I took tons of pictures....